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borlandia ([personal profile] borlandia) wrote2005-10-15 02:09 am

Feels Like Rain

It's starting to rain outside.

I really feel like I can't do anything right in life. Even if I have the best intentions, something goes awry. I want to try really hard to do well, but it just ends up not happening. I really think I'm inept to that. I don't realize that, despite doing something that seems ok, I'm hurting someone else. Does this make me a loser? I guess the road to hell is paved with good intentions. John Ray was right.

I'm calling Gabe on Sunday and telling him I don't have enough confidence for the job. Which is the truth.

Tomorrow will be awesome though. No matter what.