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But the hours they creep,
the patterns repeat,
Dont be concerned,
I know I'll be fine on my own
I never said "Don't go."
Don't go.
Today's been a pretty random ass sequence of events. I took my chem final, and uh, I passed it. That's all you need to know. I passed it. End of story, case closed.
Went home for a little bit, hung with the family and got some good time with some relatives that I haven't seen in forever. I felt terrible leaving. I haven't felt that bad leaving somewhere....probably since I left for college. I just wanted to stay there and keep having fun and just forgetting about all the responsibilities I have.
The REASON I left was because I knew Ryan was here and I wanted to hang out with him. Well, it didn't work out that way. Ryan and everyone else went to a party that I wasn't allowed at....so I ended up just chilling and watching a movie, then later went and talked to a friend for a while about a myriad of topics.
One thing that keeps hitting me is the fact that my original group of friends at Davis broke up so abruptly. I'm trying hard to just forget the past...but it's difficult. Ryan and I were once best of friends. Shit kinda happened and now it's like we're only acquaintances when he comes up. Which sucks. I miss the guy at times and it's a drag that even when he is here I don't talk to him much. I kinda just severed myself from that group, and that was that. I sorta tried breaking into another group, but it didn't work out. You can't just get yourself into a group of friends.
Earlier I was talking about how everyone has somebody they spend all their time with. Jake has his girl, Brian has his girl. Devin has his girl, too. I would like to be the type that hangs out with Devin, Sergey, Matt and everyone but I don't know...that just doesn't seem to be working out. We'll be cool living together next year, but I always feel like the outsider in that group, like I'm only invited to the big big functions. Not like I'm dissing them, they are all awesome people and I would love to be closer to all of them, but it doesn't seem like that's going to happen. Jorden, despite having a g/f and work to do has made an effort to hang with me still, and that's quite commendable. He's a good guy and is the only old friend I talk to with any regularity. It's pretty safe to say he's way more mature than most people I know.
Who knows, though. Things change so abruptly, you never know what to expect. I've got plans and stuff, so that's something.
The Red Sox have lost 4 out of their last 5 and are becoming more disappointing every day. I know I said the same thing last year, but this really isn't last year. A way different team with a different playing style and MO. Wakefield starts today at 5 pm, and I'll be watching and hoping the skid will stop. Otherwise, the Cubs will have swept and Paul will be a happy man. Manny Ramirez is pissing me off and I've had a halt on my wearing of his jersey shirt lately. Trot and Tek are really the 2 stud offensive performers, and David Wells is the best starter. OK so Clement had ONE shit start, so technically he could be the best starter, but Wells' performance of late has been incredible. The 2 losses against the Cardinals and Friday against the Cubs were f'n blowouts, but Saturday was just a tease. Got up 4-0 early, blew that lead, came within one run of tying it and fizzled. As Tito said, "We're just good enough to barely lose, and that's unacceptable." So get their asses in gear already and let's play some friggin ball!
As of right now, I've had 4 hours of sleep the last 44 hours. Catch-up time, yo.
the patterns repeat,
Dont be concerned,
I know I'll be fine on my own
I never said "Don't go."
Don't go.
Today's been a pretty random ass sequence of events. I took my chem final, and uh, I passed it. That's all you need to know. I passed it. End of story, case closed.
Went home for a little bit, hung with the family and got some good time with some relatives that I haven't seen in forever. I felt terrible leaving. I haven't felt that bad leaving somewhere....probably since I left for college. I just wanted to stay there and keep having fun and just forgetting about all the responsibilities I have.
The REASON I left was because I knew Ryan was here and I wanted to hang out with him. Well, it didn't work out that way. Ryan and everyone else went to a party that I wasn't allowed at....so I ended up just chilling and watching a movie, then later went and talked to a friend for a while about a myriad of topics.
One thing that keeps hitting me is the fact that my original group of friends at Davis broke up so abruptly. I'm trying hard to just forget the past...but it's difficult. Ryan and I were once best of friends. Shit kinda happened and now it's like we're only acquaintances when he comes up. Which sucks. I miss the guy at times and it's a drag that even when he is here I don't talk to him much. I kinda just severed myself from that group, and that was that. I sorta tried breaking into another group, but it didn't work out. You can't just get yourself into a group of friends.
Earlier I was talking about how everyone has somebody they spend all their time with. Jake has his girl, Brian has his girl. Devin has his girl, too. I would like to be the type that hangs out with Devin, Sergey, Matt and everyone but I don't know...that just doesn't seem to be working out. We'll be cool living together next year, but I always feel like the outsider in that group, like I'm only invited to the big big functions. Not like I'm dissing them, they are all awesome people and I would love to be closer to all of them, but it doesn't seem like that's going to happen. Jorden, despite having a g/f and work to do has made an effort to hang with me still, and that's quite commendable. He's a good guy and is the only old friend I talk to with any regularity. It's pretty safe to say he's way more mature than most people I know.
Who knows, though. Things change so abruptly, you never know what to expect. I've got plans and stuff, so that's something.
The Red Sox have lost 4 out of their last 5 and are becoming more disappointing every day. I know I said the same thing last year, but this really isn't last year. A way different team with a different playing style and MO. Wakefield starts today at 5 pm, and I'll be watching and hoping the skid will stop. Otherwise, the Cubs will have swept and Paul will be a happy man. Manny Ramirez is pissing me off and I've had a halt on my wearing of his jersey shirt lately. Trot and Tek are really the 2 stud offensive performers, and David Wells is the best starter. OK so Clement had ONE shit start, so technically he could be the best starter, but Wells' performance of late has been incredible. The 2 losses against the Cardinals and Friday against the Cubs were f'n blowouts, but Saturday was just a tease. Got up 4-0 early, blew that lead, came within one run of tying it and fizzled. As Tito said, "We're just good enough to barely lose, and that's unacceptable." So get their asses in gear already and let's play some friggin ball!
As of right now, I've had 4 hours of sleep the last 44 hours. Catch-up time, yo.
