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Bent and maybe broken
Apr. 11th, 2005 01:49 amTalked to my cousin tonight for the first time in a very long while. Even across all these years, him and I have a ton in common still. Not on the surface at all. If you'd superficially looked at the two of us, you'd say there couldn't be two more different guys out there. But like our mannerisms and the way we go about things is really similar. Him and I have kind of a lot in common as well in the fact that we're kind of in the same mental kind of, block. Kinda stuck in this limbo stage where you're not sure what you SHOULD be doing, you're not able to do what you WANT to do, so you just do what you CAN do, even though that may totally conflict with what you want to do and what you should be doing.
I guess the bottom line is we're both just not very happy with our lives and we'd both just like to go somewhere else and get something else going. There's a possibility we might split an apartment down in San Diego or something in the future depending on how things go in the future. Oh well, that's the skinny on that.
I had a pretty nice weekend at home. It was hard to get things done but I did whatever I could. My mom was kinda crampin' my style as usual. I could never talk to my mom about shit anymore because she just starts rambling about something I don't really care about and starts relating everything back to herself and all of the sudden you're in this circular one-sided conversation where you find yourself just nodding your head and saying "ok" and praying to God that you're struck by lightning or something.
I guess I'll probably go see "Fever Pitch" this week. Probably by myself. I don't know when. Maybe I'll just drive out to Oakland and see a REAL baseball game instead. Also by myself.
Tomorrow I just have a lot of class and a lot of shit to do. Have to get this "paper topic/outline" cranked out by Thursday for Psych and have to do a ton of Chem to catch up.
Today's just been a heavy day of like, trying to keep myself from getting too wound up. A lame ass Sox loss, a stupid end to the Masters, annoying parents, a long nap, a fair amount of time wasted TRYING to read but not actually getting it accomplished. The only class I'm actually caught up in is history, and that's because, well, it's actually kinda interesting.
Just getting broken in is all...
I guess the bottom line is we're both just not very happy with our lives and we'd both just like to go somewhere else and get something else going. There's a possibility we might split an apartment down in San Diego or something in the future depending on how things go in the future. Oh well, that's the skinny on that.
I had a pretty nice weekend at home. It was hard to get things done but I did whatever I could. My mom was kinda crampin' my style as usual. I could never talk to my mom about shit anymore because she just starts rambling about something I don't really care about and starts relating everything back to herself and all of the sudden you're in this circular one-sided conversation where you find yourself just nodding your head and saying "ok" and praying to God that you're struck by lightning or something.
I guess I'll probably go see "Fever Pitch" this week. Probably by myself. I don't know when. Maybe I'll just drive out to Oakland and see a REAL baseball game instead. Also by myself.
Tomorrow I just have a lot of class and a lot of shit to do. Have to get this "paper topic/outline" cranked out by Thursday for Psych and have to do a ton of Chem to catch up.
Today's just been a heavy day of like, trying to keep myself from getting too wound up. A lame ass Sox loss, a stupid end to the Masters, annoying parents, a long nap, a fair amount of time wasted TRYING to read but not actually getting it accomplished. The only class I'm actually caught up in is history, and that's because, well, it's actually kinda interesting.
Just getting broken in is all...
