Oh, Lonesome Me

[borlandia]

I abhor my own subconscious.

I thought I was doing OK after the realtor conversation yesterday. It apparently put more stress on me than I thought.

I drank in severe excess last night. Just really overdid it. My brain knows when I'm in trouble mentally, and sadly, being drunk or hungover is the only cure. It's the only thing that truly dulls my emotions enough to just...keep going.

Seriously don't know how I'm going to get through this in a healthy manner.

Comments

[alwaysbeenasmiler]

It's hard to practice self care-- especially when you have no clue what that might be. I find that I try to sink myself into some sort of fantasy world, that's my self care-- or rather it used to be my self care technique; nowadays I have to put up with work and then I come home and I'm bombarded with too much negative media and it bites

[gwendraith]

I wish there was a simple way that everyone knew to look after their own wellbeing but there isn't. Have you ever tried CBT which I've been told can help? I do hope you feel stronger soon.

[omnipotent]

*gentle hugs* Anything to do with real estate in our country can be stressful. Please don't be too hard on yourself. Hang in there.

[3y3]

I benge, sometimes, when my mood is dull-lived, sometimes we just need a drink. Lol it makes it better at first until right before I feel sleep coming on that I start to get pretty hungry then forget to eat, then, waking up to the next day with the horrible hangover just makes things even more shittier than before I drank but it takes the pain away.